My world has changed. It is hard to wake up each day and feel like someone else. I’m not me. It wouldn’t be so difficult if I was a better version of me, but that’s not the case. I’m numb most of the time and sad the other. It sucks.
I listen to my favorite songs and don’t feel the emotions they typically stir. I am depressed and feel lonely and that is not at all my normal self. The only thing that gives me a bit of joy are my kids and my grandchildren. Thankfully, that love isn’t lost.
My hope is this is only temporary. Having a total thyroidectomy, and particularly the medicine required after, throws the body into a tailspin. My head is in a fog. I could sleep for days. Once or twice a day for a brief moment I feel normal. But that is fleeting.
I pray to whoever is listening that my life will eventually be back to my old normal and that this mess isn’t my new normal.
I will most likely be intermittent with my blog while I recuperate and get used to this.